• I will work in art
• I am a good artist
• I am very creative
• I will get paid well in art
• I am focused on my art
• I am a good artist
• I make good art
• I enjoy making good art
• I am a good artist who makes good art

I am working on drawing with a pen. I read somewhere from someone about how its important to draw with a pen. sketch with a pen. so I do some much better with a pencil but well I want to get better so a pen it is for me. Next step is spending time with watercolor. cool. That will take some work. SO I am looking foward to watercolor.

I am up early today: amazing. it is cold outside today. i am hoping it will warm up a little. i am sure this will happen when the sun comes up a little more. woo hoo. good things. what a wonderful day. 6 :43 am april 29 2006. wow april went by really fast. hhmmm. so happy. so so very happy. woo hoo.

from work wednesday.

7:04 pm.

friday.

class starts soon i am so very happy about this fact. It will feel good to draw again in class. I miss it so much. I want to get better and work in art so much. I have not been able to yet. I miss it so much. My person needs to make things each day. So i am going to not loss my focus on the goal. I will work in art.

man. i hate my job.
i really do
not enough pay
and its stupid
i really really hate my job.

12:33 am

thursday

pen and tablet for computer

art work

1. postcard
4. website
6. business cards

These are things i need to do for myself. To be able to work in art. These are some drawing I did at work. It was really slow today. So i got a couple of good drawing in.

I am having trouble posting pictures. so. I will just talk about how wonderful the weather is right now. It is pretty today. I will post pictures wednesday. I have a couple to put up.

11:55 am monday. april 24, 2006

its grey again today. i burned my tongue at work sunday. oh man. it hurts. hot water at work let me tell you. i havent burned my tongue in a while. oh my. oh well what can i do. it will get better i am hoping.

wow this is so cool. mel did so much for cartoons.

oh good picture.

wow. mel did so much for cartoons.

its a not so nice day out there. we need the rain i wish it would just rain. It is just gray out there. i still dont feel great. i am hungery. so maybe i should go find food. more later. i need to draw.

I dont like to let people around me down.

it upsets me so much when people let me down. i am moving on and not thinking about past wrongs. people are people. i cant change any of them. i can only work on myself.

7 : 00 am so pretty.

6 : 30 am
it was cold
out there
today.
so i didnt
stay long.

one more

right now. 6:07am. ha.

I have to write my ideas down.
ha. i look sleepy.

there this one looks better. hehehhehee

my hair looks funny. ha.

confidence confidence confidence.

I have to not talk about being single. there is a girl at work that anything out of her mouth is about how she is single and how she just wants to be married. so i dont want to sound like that. so i just need to keep my mouth closed about my life. i have learned something from her. I need to take this with me as i go. I have confidence. big time confidence.

5:40 am friday april 21, 2006

I was just asleep ten minutes ago. shmooey jumped on me and woke me up. so i am wake now. the sun is not up yet. shmooey is just like a child but on a smaller scale. i think i am getting sick. i am feeling it in my chest.

so funny at work now i see children reading and walking. this is so funny to watch. parents are like ok put your book up here and they are still reading so they hold onto the book not wanting to lose there place. well so i use a book mark and the scan it. and give it right back. i just think its so funny to watch. i was not like that. reading was not something i wanted to spend anytime on growning up. i want my children to be able to read that well so that they just can not put the book down to buy it as well. walking after me reading. i just think that pretty cool.

my friend just told me yesterday. that she was going to have a baby. oh man it was so funny i was in the parking lot at work. i have been trying to call her for weeks now. we had just kinda finished and she was like by the way... man so happy. amazing. all of my closes friends are having children and then second children. I am happy for all. i am not ready to be a mother yet. i still have time. so for now i am aunty michelle. ha. that sounds so funny to me. I just want them to grow up a little more so all these children are fun. well . more funny. like 5. thats a good age. they all will be able to do things. little little babies are so cute but they just dont do much. oh well someday i will have children of my own. huge way to go alyx. :) woo hoo. for you.

the birds are singing and the sun is coming up more. this is good that i am getting a good start to my day. i need to draw. write out some plot points. and then draw some more. i am hungery as well i need to fit that into my life.

I am waiting for my first pay check. man. i still have one more week. this is going to be painful. i am not going to be able to save money with gas prices the way that they are going to be. this upsets me. i am going to stay home on my days off. This makes me want to be able to do a job that i can stay home for. freelance for now sounds good.

off to find food.

thursday april 20 2006

8 10 am

the sun is out here. what a wonderful day. i am sleepy already. the day has not really started yet. oh well. i dont have to work late today. this is a good thing. I will be happy to be off tell sunday when i get home tonight. I am feeling great. I am happy now. JOY and more JOY. things are wonderful in my life. I am feel just fine thankyou. So happy its thursday. its going to be a great day. I can feel it. I will make it a great day. woo hoo. heres to a great day.

12:45 am i ran a mile in 17:50 . this is a personal best. go me. i weigh 184. i havent been this number in a while. go me. I want to make more art. I want to lose more. So these are some of my goals. Tuesday went a better then i thought it would. I was able to keep up better then I thought I would. I can make coffee well now and all the other drinks as well. Only once I had to make a drink over. Which I did and went on. I didnt put in enough ice. So the guy came back. I was happy to make it again. no problem. Another day and another dollar. People are nice so I am enjoying the work. Dad and I had dinner together which was reallly nice. I was able to have a friendly face for awhile. Its pretty funny I have run into someone I know from somewhere everyday I have worked. Ha. I think that is pretty funny. old teacher. a cop that spoke at my high school and gave me a ride home after a car accident. a girl that went to the same college as me. a girl i worked with and then dad. ha pretty funny. so i am off to draw a little. work on something. or at least look at something good so that I can think of my own ideas for stories and animation. i have to figure what i want to do with my life. i have to focus. i miss my art class in boston. i also miss my drop-in drawing class in worcester. i need to read more. i miss reading. so working at the bookstore is a very good thing for me.

tuesday
april 18 2006

monday was a pretty ok day. i was at work the whole day. I am still really stresssed out there. so it is no fun being there. i am still learning. so i am hoping that i feel better there soon. so far i am not really enjoying the job much. i am looking for the good now. hoping to find it. i think i will feel better as soon as i get my first pay check.

today is tuesday and its warm and windy and wonderful. ehhehe he. looking forward to the day. hoping it will be a good one at work. i just want to finish school. i hate that i havent done that yet.

this picture was taken at southern.

Ha. what a picture of me.

Happy easter.

ICE AGE II

I have seen it. go see it. It's funny. Sweet. Love story.

backbone not wishbone

3:23 am

april 15 2006

right now

ha. this was taken a couple of days ago. i think i look funny in this picture.

One hunderd posts. wow. thats really cool. go me. hehhee ok wow.
here is a picture of my baby kitty chrissy.

I think this is a really cool picture. she moved a little bit so her tail looks weird and her ears. but i love the way her face looks. she was looking at shmooey at the time. i dont think they get a long to well. shmooey goes after her to much. she is an amazing cat. she can jump so high and with such grace. cool cat.

2:30am april 15 2006

here are some more drawing from 2005. i have to keep going. i have to keep working. i need to draw more. so this is what i am going to do.

here is a couple of pictures of shmooey i took the other day. in the sunshine.

11:48pm
Thursday
April 13, 2006

Positive Thinking.

Today is sunny and warm. wow. spring is here. I am happy now. I am ok your ok. hehehe

11:30 pm:
wednesday

I had lunch with my mom today. talked to dad as well. worked and now i am home. wow. i am sleepy. i dont feel well. i worked out a little bit and want to work out more. i need to sleep. my head hurts. oh well. i sure do love this blog. i am so happy that i am keeping up with it. i need to make more art. i as so happy that i am able to take an art class coming up in may. this makes me feel like i am still moving in the direction with my art. so. this makes me happy. i will post those pictures that i make in the future.

theses are from 2003:

i came home tonight after getting off of my new job around 8. i called dad and askied if he wanted dinner. he said that was cool and met me at the sandwich shop in town. i was so tried. but it was funny dad said he had come in to the store today and saw me at work. i really wish he would of come over to say hello. that would have been cool. my old manager from the toy store came in to see my old manager that got me the job at the shop now. she came over to say hi. it was cool. i gave her a hug and it was so nice to see a smiling face. what a super. so cool and sweet of carol. broke up the day. i am trying to remember all that was said to me today. hehee i hope it stays in there. so then i came home and fell asleep right after dinner. my head hurt a lot after trying to pay so much attention. i am up now and it doesnt hurt so much just a liittle bit. i am sure it will feel better in the morning. ha.

april 12 , 2006 12:03 am-

i took a picture of this older mans shoes at drop in the other day. i thought it was so cool that he had chuck's on. he said he bought them at an army supplie store and that he painted in them. which i thought was cool as well. he gave me a hard time on taking the picture but he was cool about it in the end which made me happy. i was like its just for my research. anyway it was cool of him to stand for the picture.